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Is it dream or you

2009-05-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

today. my weirdness dream ever. missing ah gong ah por too much or is they really come back to talk to me.. this dream i think i will never forget. ah por smile to me, i never felt so real in dream. first time. i really love them alot, but i never realize, until the day they gone. Is my first time, i wake up then i cry. i really cry. after i wake up. the pain is really sad. always looking in their room i feel really empty. they are really important in our family....
Always love ah gong Ah por!

after months never blog, many things have change i guess.. my attachment is going to end, next week is the last week.. good things is i am going to become a student again! Yah! My fav girl went to poly now.. and today is her BIRTHDAY! hope that she always have no worries... she now i at sentosa, why never invite me, so sad.. haha. of cus not. even she ask, i also won't go, when i saw her, i am like so dumb. can't speak at all.. so prevent other this happening, dont go anywhere and dont say anything. haha. way i always think so much!

Now i am super worry, i am the only person know. keep to myself... i will solve it! JIAYOU!

Comatose..

2009-03-26T20:50:00.002+08:00

Comatose..

hate, feeling like thisI'm so tired,
of trying to fight thisI'm asleep and all I dream ofIs waking to you
Tell me, that you will listenYour touch, is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
Comatose
I'll never wake up without anOverdose, of you
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe'
Less I feel you next to me
You take, the pain I feelWaking up to you never felt so realI don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way, you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so realI hate, living without youDead wrong, to ever doubt youBut my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh, how I adore youOh, how I thirst for youOh, how I need you
Comatose I'll never wake up without anOverdose, of you
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe 'Less I feel you next to me You take, the pain I feel Waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream 'Cause my dreams don't comfort me The way, you make me feel Waking up to you never felt so realBreathing lifeWaking up
My eyes open up
ComatoseI'll never wake up without anOverdose, of youI don't wanna live! I don't wanna breathe! 'Less I feel you next to me
You take, the pain I feel
Waking up to you never felt so realI don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way, you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so realOh, how I adore you Waking up to you never felt so realOh, how I thirst for you Waking up to you never felt so realOh, how I adore you ~ (Comatose)(Oh! )The way, you make me feelWaking up to you never felt so real

2 Great Song.. So real.

2009-03-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

Maybe you think i am a old guy. hearing this stuff.. but if you understand what the lyrics. i think there a meaning in it. Hear it.

当我知道你们相爱

我是不是該安靜的走開

Hope you get it. signing off....

silence is all the strength i left.....

2009-03-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

Moody times i see this...

最后的幸福

灯光来了我们笑的那么甜蜜
那张照片有我和你
多么希望能停留在那时光
那是唯一的照片我不只要唯一
我要是数不完的甜蜜

我给的那么多我付出的那么多
到最后痛的人还是我
眼泪之能减轻想你的时间
不放弃因为我相信
你是我的最后的幸福

灯光没了甜蜜也开始消失了
只能说曾经快乐过
想你的时候自能看着照片
快乐都是短暂快乐变成空气
这一切的噩梦可以停止吗

我给的那么多我付出的那么多
到最后痛的人还是我
眼泪就像我呼吸一样
不放弃因为我相信
你是我的最后的幸福

你记得吗我给的给的承诺
等你的每一天，每一月，每一秒都很不简单
我只能等让时间证明一切

Yeah.. i spend about months to do a complete lyrics.. Yeah i am lousy. cause chinese is super lousy. ya! People better not see this. this is for when i am old to see....

Time past.

2009-02-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

My mood now is so calm and high. time past really fast my attachment have already past about 14weeks. The people there are great. there is only one guy. i dont really like. Nvm. dont wish talk or think of him. i post today, there is a purpose. i think is the best friday after Secondary life. i brought iphone but strangely i dont feel very happy to buy it. but i just glad i have change a phone. the best part of today is i saw someone. that someone have step on my life quite a big part.. i saw her in Coincidence.. i was with my mum, rushing for our late lunch. we pass by a push cart. There is the part. i saw her pass by me with her smile. i was so sure is her but i just think that it cant be. and there i hear her name.. WOW is her. but i just did not turn back. why why? No idea.
i am so happy. Cause she is very happy.. she is just the same when i think back. hahs. silly of me. yeah. time to stop. yeah. cya. will blog again.

Yeah! Over! Over!

2008-12-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

It been a month many things have happen.. today just end my school.. is holiday until 15dec. have been attach to schering plough. i when for medical check i have some lung problem.. that is the thing i just cant accept.. That fews days i just cant stop thinking.. now i am really better.. Going back 9dec to do X-ray.. hope that i no need to operate. or i may have to give up mine attactment.. that is what i dont hope so..
i have been writing lyrics too haha.. finding the tune and writing lyrics.
see my lyrics!!

我给的那么多我付出的那么多
到最后痛的人还是我
眼泪不停流到我的心里震动
我不放弃是因为我相信会有转机

i have to write more.. i know. yeah thats all.. tmr have to play basketball.. Ya is like kana force. hahs. night! guys!

yeah! back again!

2008-11-05T20:54:00.004+08:00

i want to post today cus i have done another lyrics again!! comment please!!

让我好好爱你，多一天
让我好好看你，多一眼
让我抓住你的手好吗
过的今天一切的爱都会停止

心里有点秘密绝不知道
原来我是爱你了知道了但是太迟了
你已经属于别人了
你每一次当我是你的mei
但是我都没当你是我的kor
我还幻想过你是我的人

让我好好爱你，多一天
让我好好看你，多一眼
让我抓住你的手好吗
过的今天一切的爱都会停止

that all!!
thanks to http://www.chinese-tools.com/tools/ime.html
this website have help me a lot in writing lyrics! yeah!!

long weekend!

2008-10-25T23:54:00.005+08:00

long long weekend! tomorrow will be going to orchard Grand court to eat porridge buffet.. then monday will be going to my aunt's daughter 1 month birthday!! I wish that she will be clever and healthy.. today i have write lyrics again.. hope for comment..

我天天一直都打给你就是听你的声音
温柔的语气就像音乐盒在旋转

我天天想看这你因为你带着笑容
白皙的牙齿就想白白的雪

看到你, 觉得世界很美好
开心的你,让我有很深刻的回忆
喜欢你, 是我最後的幸福
微笑的你,让我不能忘记你
你永远是我的cinderalla

there is another too but is not really complete..

我不想看到她但是遍遍遇到她
为什么要措弄我为什么是现在

蓝蓝的天我走在路边
忽然有点感觉会遇到熟悉的脸孔
原来是我最喜欢了，她
我对这她笑突然有个男的握局她的手
心里死了心里明白了

comment anyone can? thanks!!
Thank you!!(:

lovely weekend!!

2008-10-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

1week gone!! Yeah! 5 to 6week end of year exam! then will be exam! and holiday! i hope the days faster come.. so i can faster work hard and study then have my sweet holiday!!! hope that this weekend can do my glasses!! Now the O level people is sure very nervous this days! hope that they wont! Come on lets work hard together. i believe we can!

when you need me i will appear,
i will disappear when you dont need me.

My Saturday!

2008-10-06T13:40:00.002+08:00

My Saturday!
Me and Guo hui, stanly, Shi wei and his brother Go cycling! That day i was so tried.. before the day i only sleep 4hours.. but i still go cycle.. i am really crazy.. We start cycle and is so peaceful, suddenly stanly fall, so we have to wait for the blood to stop.. We waste our time again. but nvm.. then we continue our journey to changi.. You really cant imagine the distance is so long long long.. We reach the near the railway for the plane to take off... i notice around every 5 to 6 min plane take off.. is really big man, especially the sound.. POWER! the distance is long... from east coast we cycle to changi village.. that is real far.. the worse is we have to cycle back.. They are fast but i was trying to be fast but i just can.. my leg is in a critical stage. so tried.. lucky there is shortcut back.. hahs. or i really need to call 911.. Then we take a rest at a jetty, i was too tried then i lie on the sit... looking at the star and sky... then suddenly there is a bright thing fly at the sky. so fast and disappear, and i guess is a shooting star. So i make a wish.. hahs.. what a special surprise for me.. then we when burger king to have our dinner.. then we all head back home..

So overall.. the most happy is the shooting star. is really small and bright.. okay. thats all!

Time have gone really fast.

One year is going to gone.

Zai Nan days...

2008-10-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

So Dead! what a dead blog.. So what? hahs!
just a blink of eye, i only left around 14days of holiday! 14days look like a lot but is just a few hours to me especially when is holiday.. This days i have been zai nan.. just staying at home using comp, play Psp, play wii.. although is like wasting of time but is really okay.. i have rest well.. i think i am quite really for another 2months of study! i have stay at home thinking about my past and future.. sometime i am really crazy, i can laugh suddenly.. Have been hearing good music by Jay chou.. he have really know how to handle the music well.. so proud of him.. Yeah. nothing to write about anymore. end here....

我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

HOlidaY!

2008-09-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

hoHo HoHo! is not christmas.. is holiday! 3week of holiday! yeah!
What i plan for this 3 week..
erm first. i want to have a hair cut!
second, finding a pants, which i want to have!
third, i wan to change my glasses!
maybe work!
maybe going suntec, for the gaming event!
is too little i know but i will think more and more!
thats all!

I would hate for you to find somebody new

Who you really love

Cause it could mean losing you

Days and Days!

2008-09-12T10:42:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i was late.. for the elieen class. worse thing is that i having phase test! i take the test.. but i promise her that if i late for her lesson my 50% assignment and phase test and class test gone... i am so dead meat.. i have no choice because i want to take my phase yesterday.. forget about it.. i will just make it on time the next time round..
Heard the song before. this song give me feelings, see the lyrics too..

Listen, things just aren’t the same as they used to beI don’t know what it is but I’m just not sure if I could do this anymoreI mean, everything happens for a reason…right?Well, maybe our reason is not now but I do love youI doI love you,
Girl, I love you
But I don’t know if the fire burns the way that it used to
When I met you, if we can’t say that soonThen, what’s the point of holding on? Oh oh
We‘ve been together for a long time, you & I, Baby...IThat’s for sure but listen I got something on mind
And I think you should knowIt’s just so hard to explain the feelings I’m feeling insideWhen loving you ain’t the same,
leave it alone till it breaksThings are making sense and I can’t decideShould I go? Should I stay? Will this work? Or is too late?Even though…(Baby…)
I love youGirl, I love youBut I don’t know if the fire burns the way that it used toWhen I met you, if we can’t say that soonThen, what’s the point of holding on?Should we give up and let it go?When I,
When I know it’s time to move onShould I hold onto what we have?Pretend it’s alright when it’s time to say good-byeNow, don’t get me twistedI ain’t tryna point no fingers at youWe both did some wrong like most f****** relationships doBut baby I just don’t know what else to doWhen it’s time to move onI’m coming to you like a manHere I am, girl…When life is at situation that can change your whole worldI rather not live a lie, I can’t explain itJust let your heart decide and we’ll be okay girlOur lord is our guide and we’ll make it throughWe gotta make it throughCause…
I love youGirl, I love youBut I don’t know if the fire burns the way that it used toWhen I met you, if we can’t say that soonThen, what’s the point of holding on?Should we give up and let it go?When I, When I know it’s time to move onShould I hold onto what we have?Pretend it’s alright when it’s time to say good-byeLord knows, that you’re my angelThe last thing I wanted was to hurt youJust realize I need some time…(Does this mean goodbye?)Does this mean goodbye?
I love youGirl, I love youBut I don’t know if the fire burns the way that it used toWhen I met you, if we can’t say it soonThen, what’s the point of holding onShould we give up and let it go?When I, When I know it’s time to move onShould I hold onto what we have?Pretend it’s alright when it’s time to say good-bye, yeah

Thats all~

SAY YEAH WITH ME!

2008-09-10T19:19:00.002+08:00

2 to 3 week i am going to a super hyper boy! HOLIDAY! i guess i will be working the period of time... then i can think of things to buy for myself yeah! today is PTQA test i lost 5% of marks becus of i did not cover.. WHAT A SMALL MISTAKE BUT IT CAUSE MY 5%.. what a waste.. luckly my theory get 90marks! that is something for so long i did not see in my result. This coming days exam and exam! must choing choing choing!
Come on ppl give me some support! I guess everyone is very busy with their stuff but i think that you all should show concern to all your friends! Remember!

HEARD THAT SONG B4?

2008-09-04T19:58:00.003+08:00

ERM!! that song is my sisters and me childhood song. We love the show! is about basketball show! is damn nice.. We really hope mediacorp can repeat the song! Have been waiting for years! I remb is around primary 3.. Come on hurry mediacorp!!

today i was late! So late. i was so prepare to get
MISS EILEEN scold.. BUT a very very big surprise me.. she did not turn up! SHE IS SICK TODAY! i was damn lucky! YEAH!

Tomorrow i will have a long day! after school i be meeting a client to sell our product.. hope i can success yeah! but if i fail then i will try again! HOPE that everyone can support me!YEAH!

Study again!

2008-09-01T22:55:00.003+08:00

Got to go school tommorow... hais.. teacher day again mah.. izzit great.. secondary school now have there 1 week holiday so great! my holiday still must wait 4week plus.. but before this 4 week plus got a stuff to do.. Going to get even more busy than ever.. What a ITE life for me! Hope that IA days come in a very short time.. then i can work and learn! haha! and explore things that i may ever know.. that all for today! stay tune.. haha!

Last week of Aug!

2008-09-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

oh! this week smooth aceppt thursday again! i was so piss by this teacher! i been 7weeks in school after the holiday.. everyday thurs i get talk say something on me! oh gosh what a 'lucky teacher' i have! this week strange thing came back again.. i dream, about her again.. out of nowhere!
This week have IT fair! so glad.. i wanted speaker and ear piece.. Sat we went there.. is so crowded like there is national day... even went we want to go home they close the raffles city link gate.cus they want to control the crowd.. there are more ppl going in then coming out... cant imagine.. today i went again.. and i brought my SONIC GEAR speaker.. i am so happy.. now i am hearing all the Fav songs.. The song sound extra nicer haha!
This week most happy is the speaker..
HAPPY BRITHDAY TZE WEI!
Hope that you will be always happy!

Summary of this week!

2008-08-23T01:14:00.002+08:00

monday and tuesday is just perfectly too fine for me..

wednesday! my worse nightmare ever.. practical test, i was so relieve is over now.. when i am typing now.. i was the fourth group to do the test.. what i say know might shock you.. first 3 group fail... but i was the 1st group in the class pass... i was so so happy after that.. i just cant believe i just pass like this.. is not as scary as what i thought about.luckly for them have retest.. Seems fine but is not at all... when i get to my cafe 1... hope you know! i few so weak after the test.. maybe is because all my luck use on the test. haah!

thursday! Chemistry day! half of the is about chemistry lor.. i was still so sick.. Let me introduce A teacher eileen low she is just so sarcastic very word from is totally SO SARCASTIC! even if i sick she still like to shoot through my heart.. i have to bear with this half year year.. Argh. if want to say about the bad stuff of her.. i think the whole page of blog is not ENOUGH!
(chill man)

friday today! is still the same.. HAPPY! weekend!
I love weekend! How i hope everyday is weekend!
YEAh!

what a DaY!

2008-08-18T22:32:00.004+08:00

Learning some experiment today.. current and volt.. lots of equipment.. Going crazy.. 2 more days! to my practical exam.. oh My GOD! so worry! One happy thing is that is drum tomorrow! YEAH!

i design again! comment no matter bad or good!! Thank yoU!

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This is a shirt! That i hope She got too..;D

Over is Over!

2008-08-17T17:22:00.012+08:00

This week will be hell for me.. i have a very hard pracitcal test.. have a very high rate of failing.. i am so envious.. cant imagine the day is coming in 3 more days.. Please bless me i can pass!!

I did some design for shirt, hope that you guys see it can give me some comment on my design..

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Thank You for seeing it! Hope you can leave some comment!

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weekend is here again!

2008-08-14T20:42:00.002+08:00

Tmr last day of weekdays... Yeah.. weekend come le.. finally can have a good rest... everyday wake up so early.. dont have good feeling.. is like get force to wake up.. HATE IT! But this life what..
Just now See some video.. i thing this is the video that everyone should know.. sing along if you know!

That's What Friends Are For

I notice people neglect what the friends have done for them.. they just take for granted..

Wish all human live peaceful! :D

national day!

2008-08-10T11:09:00.003+08:00

National day is over! i at first wanted to see firework.. but i just miss it.. nvm.. end of year there will be fireworks again. haha! druming lesson.. this tuesday dont have.. so sad.. haiz.. next week then will start the 2nd lesson.. study is normal.. chemistry is really for hard for me.. but i still can get a hang of it... yea!
wanted to sing kbox.. Who want to sing with me??
i have a logo for we all..

nice ? comment if you see it. please!

finally understand!

2008-07-29T18:46:00.002+08:00

what i have understand? You must be wondering? is really pretty lady or handsome guy have more privilege? this is truth. they do have.. what about the normal people.. i now really think that we should more look into inner self of that person.. people that are good looking may be just a flirt but not all..(but there is a high chance) that all i really want to say..

There is a video i want to show.. if have play audition you will hear before...

peacefull song!

Really want to know how you been doing..jess

weekend end again..

2008-07-27T19:04:00.002+08:00

Oh.. school again tomorrow! sad. but there is a very special occasion make me so look forward.. Tommorow i am going to register for percussion. haha! i really want to learn because of simple plan and milubling (sam) when they play is like very shuai lor.. so i want to be.. There is a goal in my life again! thats very good.. but i always fail something in my life.. that just cannot be taken back again.. hear every song in my blog.. all the song there is what i feel of the period of the time.. hope this week is a super awesome week, not only this week, all my week in my life..
haha human are greedy what..
sign off here!
Don't forget make things worth of doing..don't waste your every seconds..

i just don't no how can i make you love me once more time,

i guess only in one place

In my sweet dream..

that why i never want to wake up..jess

Windy day!

2008-07-24T20:37:00.005+08:00

today weather is so fine.. so good.. today i was so late for class.. teacher scolded me like crazy.. but i still can bear.. haha! there are some cute things that i told teacher.. she ask me what time you will reach bedok.. then i say depending on the speed of the train.. and then she scolded me for that.. she say' dont tell me the train of the speed, they are all the same.. BUT BUT! is really truth what, if you all notice sometime the train will stop for awhile at the track what.. if all speed there sure me crash right? NVM! teachers have own reason.. forget about it..

i compose haha! again but in chinese, first time my chinese is bad so dont have high expectation.. haa..

看到你, 觉得世界很美好
开心的你,让我有很好的回忆
喜欢你, 是我的幸福
微笑的你,让我不能忘记你
放弃你, 不是我要的结局
因为你,觉得我们适合当朋友
原来是我一相情愿.

very short i know but is a good start! yea right? haha!

Dont keep things in your heart, say it out will feel better.jess

relieve day..

2008-07-23T22:21:00.002+08:00

Finally i finish drawing all the 5rig... haha! so glad.. stress work over.. but i think is coming back.. i have 3 experiment and i just dunno which experiment is for which lesson.. haha! but life is getting much more better.. and hope for even more! :D
Today lesson my dear friend, shi wei take my PSP and play, and teacher confiscate.. i was doing my drawing, i am so innocent, so wu gu.. then i have to wait for teacher after class end.. She ask us 'what right can you take back your PSP', then i think haha. i at first i wanted to say..' of cause i can, i am the owner of this PSP ma, right?' but too bad i just cant say.. teacher sure more get angry and the more i wont get my psp back.. say lots of things lah.. but is too long to post it. but in the end happy ending i still get back my PSP! hehe!

My head still pain again, i really wonder should i learn percussion.. i really really wonder... i have to think men.. should i should? argh.. must take more information first!

if loving you is wrong, i never want to be right. jess

what a day..

2008-07-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

Stress this word never in my dictionary.. yesterday i was drawing the rig with the wire.. i just cant get it.. and i know my brain is really turning like crazy. almost cry because i cant take the pressure but i still bear with it.. i must be more prepare for anything to come.. this is just a begining of my life.. i know this course will turn me to become a different person in the future..

i really hate to read book from young but i started reading a book which my aunt brought me last year.. There is a reason. why this book? is about realise your dream i have learn something in the book.. esp the author say decision is just the begining but make sure that you wont leave any regret in your future..i only have read half of the book.. still many pages to go..

About today my mind is clear.. and understand what teacher have said.. i am really glad.. today just seems fine.. i see the movie "L change the world" after school end.. i only watch the 1st disc maybe watching 2disc the tomorrow.. Something surprise me. one of the days i saw about hancock poster, they say going to give out some prize.. then i was thinking.. there is so many people want, there is only 000.1% you can win.. and then when i went to school guo hui was the contestant, he won the prize.. wow.. so i was thinking if you want you need to try even is only 000.1% chances..

love never come easy for me..jess

Today!

2008-07-15T18:49:00.003+08:00

today school ends quite early 12.30pm..Went to shi wei's mum stall to eat our lunch.. delicious yummy.. i love the sotong.. have a very special taste.. you guys can go and try is at fu lu shou complex.. near OG! for more detail ask me ba.. if you really interested.. then we walk to sim lim square.. because i wanted to buy a nice ear piece.. we went to sony sqaure i saw the ear piece is not nice at all so common.. then i head to another shop then i saw pink and lime green even wire too.. then i think for awhile then i brought it.. quite happy with my decision haha! thats all for today ya.. Have to draw all the 5 plant nicely... :D

i have learn what is real love from you..thank you..jess

A day!

2008-07-12T23:12:00.003+08:00

today went out with sis! marina sqaure! brought a very cool t-shirt, watch a show call The stranger.. Sound really makes wonders.. it could be so blow out and scare you away.. this movie is really bored at some parts.. for me, if the full mark is 10, i will give 6.. so is better to buy Dvd and watch at home.. surprise me today is pre preview for the national day.. went we get out.. we saw jet flying.. so cool.. the best part is they make a heart shape out.

izzit cool? if is red colour it will be so much better..

You asking why? i also wish to know why. maybe is because i like you too much and if i saw you, my feeling may get stronger. i am really trying hard, to be friends again like we first met.. this is your wish so i am really trying..

SuperPower

2008-07-09T18:51:00.002+08:00

i have seen lots of superheroes shows... if you what is the power you will want? ever think of? for me.. i really hope i will have the time power... i can get back to past and to future.. if i have that will be so good.. i can do so many undone problem fix... haha.. i was just thinking..

i have start school since 7july.. what a unpleasant timetable i have... 4days 8am start lesson.. friday i have to get back to study le.. no more.. 4 days studying anymore.. mostly all 5pm end lesson.. for this half year.. i guess i will slim down lor. haha! schooling make my time past fast.. stop here.. post again.

i cant face you.. untill i clear everything.jess

Really Get Emotional

2008-07-06T00:42:00.003+08:00

Today happy day! i got buy a bag.. and i love it! yeah! erm.. before everything i today feel that i will meet someone i know.. Something really happen i saw jess.. when i saw her i just dunno what i should do? talk? smile? avoid? and yep.. i avoid. i am just so confuse. when i really want to see her, i will never able to.. when i want to put feelings down, she came out infront of me.. i really want to put down the feelings.. but i just need time.. really i need.. today maybe is becus there is too many friend with her so i did not talk. maybe.. but i never want to avoid. but i did.. after all, i really hope that she is bless with her everything she need.. sorry..

Misses them!

2008-07-04T12:41:00.003+08:00

Been days never update.. i wanted to post but i was too lazy.. i really misses the people i work with, although is just 1 week.. i donno why too.. the 1 week quite alot of things happen.. last wed there is a girl want my number.. great to know her.. she is from ite too.. last thur i saw a very familar face so alike.. or maybe is the feeling.. so like jess.. i just dunno why too.. and i saw the lady's husband and mother.. erm. i think jess will most likely to be the same as the lady.. last friday! is the worse my cash less $10 i have to pay them.. but nevermind. i just think is a lesson to pay.. next time be carefull... there, i have known alot of kind of ppl.. there is an auntie so cold you know.. i really want to make people laugh.. then i sometime make joke then she wont at all laugh or any reaction at all.. but i sometime i success making her laugh.. haha! i lame boy.. but is good to laugh cus is really bored to stand there just looking at the blank air... hereby i really want to thanks oju and rose teaching me to be a cashier.. i guess they will never know.. i hope that their road of life will be very peacefull.. :D

Do you know the pain of missing someone?

i guess you wont.. jess

tao hua..

2008-06-23T23:55:00.005+08:00

tao hua? question mark to you.. let me explain. it means a period of time you will some how attract your opposite sex.. not just 1, maybe even 2 or 3. some people may think is good but when you choose wrong.. you will really regret.. i did happen.. last year, last 3 month.. the 1st person is from my class. 2nd person is from another class. 3rd person is when i work. 4th person is from the customer service.. stead with 3rd girl just 1 month gone. and i hurt 2nd person.. that i never never want to.. i am saying this is to warn the people around me.. How i hope i never got gf.. how i hope i did not work.. how i hope i stand firm for my feelings... but what have happen already happen.. i guess this will keep in my heart forever because i want to remind myself never ever choose wrong.. i am so sorry for the 2nd person very sorry sorry.. she will know.. i know we only can be friend and i really hope that we can talk like the past that how we did before... So guys or ladies be careful.. the tao hua period will come without notice.. Get these in your head 0kay! WARNING. haha!

JOb!joB!

2008-06-23T23:48:00.003+08:00

Great news... i got a job.. i am not despo for job.. because my friend intro me in..then i just go for that.. doing a job cashier. at tampines mall.. and today saw da jie friend.. then they ask me what i am doing here.. haha! surprise to see her.. so my next post i have already know what i want to post.. it will be interesting.. my next post will be next sunday or monday.. i know no one will look forward but never mind.. is for me to self reflection..

i dreamt of you last night...

and make me12pm wake up.

oh what happen.Jess

Great Song!

2008-06-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

蕭敬騰.. you know?? if you dunno... then nvm.. his album have at least 4 songs are good... esp i love this..

lyrics here..
春天的來臨悄悄地釋出曖昧的氣息在百花齊放的季節裡你清新脫俗的有股詩意你在天南星高雅亮潔好美麗喔~~~好美麗*初夏的來臨也溢出了俏皮的氣息在暑氣充斥的季節裡你晶瑩剔透的帶著涼意你在天南星氣勢非凡好活力喔~~~好活力*輕輕柔柔的想念在單戀的季節還記得湖畔曾與你相遇喔~~甜甜蜜蜜的曖昧在熱戀的季節還記得你的笑容無比的甜你迷人的魔力我如夢奇遇愛不可思議唔~~~妙不可語喔~~~我們在白白淨淨的湖面在海芋的季節開滿著美若天仙的海芋緩緩慢慢的夏天在熱戀的季節我坐在湖邊開始輕描淡寫我坐在湖邊開始輕描淡寫

So great! tune and lyrics! other great song are..
原諒我
奮不顧身
rest you find yourself! kay? haha! Cya soon!

i have regret that i have done wrong first..

but i never regret that i fall in love with you.Jess

About relationship!

2008-06-16T02:08:00.003+08:00

For those people who hear much english than chinese
(not include non-chinese people).... you should hear this song.. is really good.. lyrics have say so much about relationship that some people have gone through.. i guess for people have gone through this, sure have strong feeling for this video.. lets enjoy. is a good song for KBOX.. so look forward to sing.. haha!

蕭敬騰-原諒我

請不要分了以後　還記得親吻過的承諾妳的永久　
已不屬於我默默低頭　那時我很多　話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂　或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受　他比我適合
愛放了手　我偽裝冷漠　比妳先說分手
請原諒我　原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口　好讓妳離開我
請原諒我　好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活
愛過恨過哭過也笑過親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我　必須假裝愛錯別讓時間逗留　我怕說不出口
原諒我　沒有解釋太多　心痛別無所求　徹底忘了我愛原來有捨得我愛過　我才懂

izzit great.. hope you all will like it! i have hightlight some parts where i think have wrote very good.. erm. how you think.. good?

what make me fall for you so long..

i have no idea..

maybe is way too deep..jess

Back to games again!

2008-06-15T13:19:00.003+08:00

i was back in maple.. erm not that maple.. is private sever.. just 6 to 7 hours i can lvl 100.. haha! but is lag.. but is okay.. there is 4th and super fast to level... so like heaven maple.. haha! here are some picture i taken!

this lady over here is powerfull her life is like 100million ;D
hack? NO.. is lag the mob is everywhere!

So thats all for today! interest to play? then ask me then!

i really hope you have great time! jess :D

101 post!

2008-06-14T03:13:00.003+08:00

i back so many days! but just abit lazy to post.. :D... erm.. today when to my sis BBQ... pretty fun.. but there is some unpleasant things.. but is okay.. alright.. everyone to me is like stranger.. lucky got sister... i am a shy boy.. haha! i can really see that 20year old plus guys when they talk to girls esp when they just knew from someother friends.. the guys can really talk well to the girls.. how??? i really wonder.. i only can talk to girls over a period of days... they are POWER! haha!

So i have post 101 already.. i will post some interesting things about me(very me)... and somethings that i have thought over a very long period.. and i finaly put down.. feel a very big stone have put away.. all this i will take time and post it... stay tune lei.. dont go away!

if you feel pain tell me..

i willing to share the pain..

but i guess you wont.. jess:D

100POST!

2008-06-08T01:11:00.005+08:00

Yea! reach my 100post le.. haha! DIAO.. that is nothing compare to others.. erm. today going to have BBQ (8/6) yea.. will post pic. i guess! haha! so look forward! will post again! soon! stay tune! :)

i am not the best but i am sure i can treat you sweet as candy!

jess ;)

Anyhow make one!

Been a long dayss..

2008-06-02T22:31:00.005+08:00

Erm.. i post today cause i hope to receive blessing for my exam tmr! i finish study at library with yong! Yeah! so happy.. i thought i wont able to study finish cause when there is friends around you, you intent more to talk to them.. than studying.. but i did it! ;) this days have been peace and can be bad sometime.. lucky i really really have good sisters and parents and aunts and uncles.. but i always lack of something.. but i have to think in others ways perhaps.. i guess i want to compose again.. after receiving some msg.. got idea agains.. you may think i am crazy.. "ME COMPOSE".. watever i like, i will just put in... i know i will never make it big but is worse than you have nothing to do..

You may see sun everyday, but for me it seems like raining..Jess

i never intent to let you see it

News!

2008-05-27T01:08:00.004+08:00

just went to watch Indiana Jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull.... erm ok not bad leh.. is quite worth at least never make me sleep... happy news for me.. just want to write it small...my mum went to a shop to make her watch cause is not working... the uncle say i shuai leh.. oh gosh!DIAO.. then there is a lady siting there.. i think is her wife say yes too.. and say i shy boy.. shuai i not sure.. but i am sure a shy boy.. haha! and uncle say sure got people admire me... i was laughing.. i cant even get a girl i like.. still wan to dream of people admire me.. Oh gosh! how can that be...uncle ask me about my age.. i say 17.. and uncle say i look much younger.. .. haha.. i am happy after all.. esp people say good things about me...haha.. i guess not really alot people will see this post haha! so even you see quiet okay! shh... haha!

This picture! feeling so strong.. Jess..

meet you there!

2008-05-25T02:23:00.008+08:00

great song! meet you there! hear it! erm.. have not blog this days! cause i just have no mood.. NO MOOD! even go out! but watever nvm.. stay at home and slack. haha! HOME THE BEST!
i got a video show you all too! but you got to be chinese cause is a chinese MV.. so too bad! hear it!

他不爱我

izzit it great? i meant the lyrics! Who will ever thought of that? and i got things to say too... i take about half hour to do this! See it!

erm. great? okay.. no ones will care! got to sleep niteZ!

i have been running for miles..

but you just went flew away with a plane,

that i cant reach, even i try any harder. hais. jess

Something touching!

2008-05-20T00:28:00.003+08:00

disaster always happen in any country.. jus hit china (四川).. we only can help.. we cant prevent that is very sad.. technology is now so updated but they still cannot pretict about mother nature.. sad sad.. My idol just done a song by 2 days! lin jun jie! for the 四川 people who have suffer and the people there who are helping to rebulid everything.. that is very nice of him, within two days never sleep compose and recordings, put so much effort in it, so dont waste it. lets hear it now!

愛與希望

lyrics too fast? cant catch up? here you go!
大地被搖晃著天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了下一秒瓦解了淚堆積成了河
但明天是好的我們要堅定著
愛~讓我們不放棄活著還要繼續和大自然拔河
當愛與希望投射炙熱的太陽昨日淚光
會隨時間都蒸發別輕易放棄明天要許更多願望裝滿了勇氣
就更有力量
當愛與希望倒映暖暖的月亮再回頭望
又是築好的家鄉我知道未來還有好多路要闖
我打開了窗看見了晴朗

So after hearing? really kind of sad for them? donate some money for them! dont hesitate okay!

Over there people who are suffering badly,

but yet here nothing have happen,

you are waiting for something bad to happen

then you will cherish?Jess =)

feel to compose again!

2008-05-18T19:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday i have read some wedsite about compose a song.. they say title is the soul in every song.. hmm. i have think.. not really think cause the feel just came to me.. and the title is (The last day) it go like this..

when was the last day i am happy
when was the last day i smile
is been so long
i dont remember

i am 17 right now
things just dont act according
good days never come

when was the last day i am happy
when was the last day i smile
is been so long
i dont remember

i was always wearing a smiling mask
No ones know i am sad
bad days always come

i know is bad.. but i will edit if i have better words to come by.. erm.. my feeling is in the song.. vesak day is tomorrow hope have better things ahead in my life.. again! hip hip hurray! ( this sentence remember me of Mr thomas.. my ex-school...

i wanna to make an effort for you only... but you just wan to stop..Jess =)

drving me crazy!

2008-05-17T16:06:00.002+08:00

Have been getting ignore by her.. even i have do or say much... my feeling now there is two song can descride. hear it!

我愛的人

原來我最愛的人是你不是他

What i done.. seems meaningless but i know she know i am thoughful. i guess thats good enough.. but is this how it is going to end? (quiet..)

i wanna to leave.. but i cry! jess

what a day again!

2008-05-14T22:39:00.002+08:00

erm.. not bad.. my practical today.. i guess i done well... haha! i really quite happy of that.. but i still have trouble.. really hope i can cope with it... when time past by... tmr have early class.... oh yah.. i have 8hrs to draw a very difficult plant.. in the practical room. i will take the picture and post it.. you will WA! so tmr is a scary day for me... theory and practical... theory quite okay.. but practical is so scary.. the teacher face is so serious lor... hais... may god please help me.. thank you! nite every1..

Why you are so busy.. i want to scream out loud... Jess ;)

My happenings!

2008-05-13T22:03:00.004+08:00

Erm.. good news.. i only have a major two day testz, 3 june and 5 june... and the rest will be holiday le... today there is a small face test but is quite okay for me.. but ytd got a class test oH gosh is so hard... i am dead.. how to get a 'A' or 'B'... my major test i muz really study hard for that... ITE life is really different from sec... that is very sad.. erm.. is like we have 2 end of year paper... one is at june, another is at nov or dec i guess... my books now i am studying is going to end... after school reopen july.. i will study another new books again... izzit it crazy? who think of this way.. i gonna knock their head.. watever i will never know.. okay le.. lots of complain i have made.. but no choice i have to bear with it... Ok end here..

My motive now is to make you happy..Jess ;)

thinking!

2008-05-11T21:05:00.003+08:00

i have been thinking lots of things last few days... even when i go out, playing games, even on my bed.. just somethings bother me and to me is really important.. for now i most hope that the particular person is very happy and looking forward for holiday... i guess i am going to work again.. to expose more people out there.. this days have been past more and more fast... to me is quite a good thing.. sometime i think that am i a good person.. can i really do something to make people happy.. do i care for people around me.. i am not sure.. but i know that i always do the best i can.. i have my limit too.. anyway i am really grateful that i have am true friend, although they are in different class and school.. and i know that when i get marry they will sure be invited..=)

i really wanna to make you smile to me again!Jess;)

thank god!

2008-05-06T01:35:00.000+08:00

thank god.. today i should be having test but my teacher change to another date.. haha! Promise, the next time round i will really study! erm.. today everything is the same. today after school when to yong house.. and i draw some thing.. you can see at www.juzpink-yong-1991.blogspot.com the two drawing... haha. if you interested then see.. 1.23am le... going to sleep..tomorrow after school going to meet sister.. wish tomorrow.. noNo. is today... i will have a pleasant day! Yea! niteZ to all audience!;)

Will you one day, walk past me and look at me again jess=)

Get back!

2008-05-04T13:56:00.004+08:00

Never been post for quite a few days..have been using lots of brain juice... of cus not in study.. something else.. hahas keep you in substance.. life have been super super peace until today.. i guess she is not free 10april.. i have guess correct.. maybe excuse is jus another form of reject.. but i will do the very last thing.. before i vanish in her life.. i know in this world whatever you give out might not be the same as you get back.. so if you really hope for things.. dont hope for much.. jus hope for happiness you given to the person is really happy!

i really wanna to give what i can! Jess =)

Day!

2008-04-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

Gonna sleep early today.. tmr lesson start at 9.30.. but i am so sure.. i will be late tmr.. but is okay first lesson is PE.. late oso nvm.. hahass.. days just getting the same.. but just somethings that i have to rush out in time.. is really long time nvr watch movie.. i guess around 3week le.. muz see ironman.. and up coming show (The dark knight), (hulk)... all good show coming out.. so glad.. time is up. bye!

i guess now you are so tight up with your time..

Jess;)

Oh i going to be tried today!

2008-04-29T02:18:00.001+08:00

2am liao.. now getting sleep.. i sure cannot sleep early for this couple of weeks ba... okay.. haha! i come post here just to increase my post everyday! gtg to hurry and sleep liao..

Am i able to touched your heart?

jess:)

hmm..

2008-04-27T04:22:00.003+08:00

hmm.. dunno what to post.. but i just feel like posting... You see the time now.. i haven sleep.. not just wake up... i doing something.. wow.. it really spend me alot of time.. but nvm is worth it.. i got to sleep liao... byebye!! sleeping prince!! hahass!

i always do the best for you,

do you know?

even how stupid i am

Jess ;)

what a life i have!

2008-04-26T00:55:00.003+08:00

today jus play pool and basketball.. with ben.. erm. dunno why keep on see JVS student.. same age as us 1... from express... So strange.. i tot i wont see anymore JVS student same age as us 1.. nvm.. i may be going quite busy liao... doing things and things.. 14more days.. argh.. argh.. so fast!! 0_0 1am.. got to sleep le...

how can thing change.. is all depend on you! Jess

here i go again!

2008-04-22T23:57:00.004+08:00

i am here.. to a fast post.. hahas.. i jus come back.. when for selection for basketball at redhill.. chee seng CC... dunno what CC is that... maybe spell wrong.. but is very near MRT station.. so tried.. they are pretty good player over there.. i will learn if they selected me in.. hope to hear from them.. okok.. got to go sleep.. nite!

we have feeling with each other..

but why we are not together.. why?

Jess =>

argh... but a pleasant day.

2008-04-22T00:06:00.005+08:00

today wat a life i spend today... i went to school for jus a safety shoe... i did not have lesson at all.. hais.. nvm.. so after school i wait for yong.. at first i was in school waiting.. then i went sze wei hse play carbon and audition.. time pass quite fast over there.. thanks!Sze wei.. i almost have a bored time... then wait for yong... cus he wanted to go to army gallery.. tz oso come along... we reach Jp and take bus 182.. drop at bus stop where arena is.. is raining so heavy... yong say he wan to go.. the funny thing is he dont even know how to go! Oh gosh.. pls next time wan to go somewhere confirm where is the place first.. we head back to jp to eat our dinner... went to eat lai lai.. wanton mee i love it... noodle is good.. i at up to 4dollars.. and is really huge amount they give.. then we watch forbidden kingdom... pretty nice show to watch.. You can watch it too..

i jus wan to be nice to you.. thats all.. Jess =)

weekends!!

2008-04-18T22:34:00.007+08:00

1week gone.. around 8weeks more to go.. for my major exam..Kambateh! today.. almost spend my time at pool only.. worse thing today happen is moblie low battery.. oh gosh.. cannot live without.. PSP too no battery.. now muz go and fully charge... 23 more days.. count yourself.. hahas.. is kind of big day for me... but muz depend will i do something to it.. been around 6days nvr msg her le.. and over 100thousand sec nvr see her... you might think i crazy.. but i am not.. but why am i counting.. cus i wan to remb everything have happen.. and the time is the most important.. So that IF 1 one day i am with her.. i will tell her how i spend my time through out all this time.. even if nvr be with her... i will tell her when the time is all right...

There is countless people in this world..

why we know each other..

is all because of fate..

So fate,

Can you help me one more time.

Jess ;>

Two of my top rap Song! love it!

If i cant have you!

How are you?

Lovely weekend again..

2008-04-16T22:05:00.003+08:00

Yea.. tmr last day study.. my lovely weekend.. things around seems jus fine.. study okay... cus really did not study much.. today i line tracing the plant again... heat exchanger.. Wow.. is super hard... worse than anyother plant.. i know.. in school 1 consider small plant.. so i really wonder how am i going to draw the real big plant? So big! So huge! cant imagine!

Saw the video down there.. yep.. that song i going to sing the next time when i go KBOX.. MUZ.. is a MUZ! quite hard lor.. But jus for fun.. haha!!

Got hear Got see it.. Dont miss it out..

i still have lots of feeling.. but.you..you...you.. Jess=)

Sick...sicK...

2008-04-15T21:40:00.003+08:00

Sick for 3days le... please i jus hope i going to be okay... somehow wish someone concern me... argh.. watever.. will nvr happen.. today go school for attendance.. today 2 of my major lesson teacher is sick...taught by the same teacher.. So bore.. the worse.. cannot be release... still have to wait for time to past.. another thing can be happy and sad.. i get back my PEQ i got 63% happy to pass, but is quite low.. Now i aim for myself.. i wan to get around 80 to 90%... around 7week to end of year.. choing ar... :) got to rest le..but wait wait, fruit is ready for me to eat.. eat fruit too okay.. :)

happy is now the most important point in my life,

Are you?Jess=)

1st day again...

2008-04-14T22:20:00.004+08:00

jus watch finish the chinese show... is about learning chinese things 1... who fight against many school... quite interesting and can learn chinese words too... some i still know.. haha.. surprise..today school is so crowded... abit kind of shock.. lesson is jus the same... oh ya.. something i really wan to say.. i hate the chair... is like the pub 1... high chair.. is so hard... butt so pain... so i have to stand up and sit down..or one day my butt going to be swollen..

getting you seem like going to the sun..

i know it could never be easy.

but i will try...Jess =)

Argh..1more day!

2008-04-12T21:46:00.002+08:00

monday 14april... going to school le.. so sad.. why so fast? hais.. so fast... jus now i msg her.. she going out with a guy tmr.. erm.. what to say leh... blank blank... DIAO'''.. maybe this time is really end liao.. God is this the end? iya if i think more.. i will be more upset.. i should concentrate on something... Now i go and watch my VCD le.. post again... hear the song.. that wat i feel now..

Your hurt is worse than anything..Jess

3more days!!

2008-04-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

ARGH..... back to school.... OH gosh... jus now i siting at dining table... thinking... things again.. self relflection.. what i done the most wrong... so so so wrong.. i at first can get her le... but i jus go the wrong way... argh... what the hell i was thinking that time... why whhy... addicted to her liao... my feeling jus cannot cannot fade... i really dunno how to express my sorry to her.. deeply regret really..

please please.. give me a chance.. to make up all the hurt that you have before.. Jess =)

7days more!

2008-04-07T12:10:00.002+08:00

This is the last week holiday le... fun is very fast going to end.. is kind of bored but iyaa... dunno how to say.. tmr going back to Sec school to take back testi.. if you wan to ask me do i wan to see her... i cant denied.. but i jus wan to see her from far thats all... but i don't think so i will get to see her... blah blah... thinking too much again...

i can make regretness..Gone..

but i really need you to

help me too..Jess =)

My Project!

2008-04-03T00:51:00.002+08:00

today not bad... we have done our powerpoint... within a 1hr plus.. haha! but bad new is.. jian ye over slp so he did not come... and jun cong over slp he come but... he come at 1plus which that time hady is going to go out le and we already done.. the worse thing is he already late he still eat before he come to hady hse... Oh gosh.. this kind of person oso have.. but nvm.. i have done my part.. i did my best.. oh after that.. 2plus leaving hady hse.. i cant believe i am with the jun cong.. i go with him sheng qiong supermarket... oh i cannot believe i spend time outside with him.. over an hour.. nvm.. So is ok... when we wan to abroad the MRT train that time... he so kaisu... stand at the arrow pointing outwards... he scare cannot enter the train ar... watever... what a strange person.. nvm.. what is in his mind set i dunnno... and he like rush to the sit lor... like he stand over a long period.. qi guai.. i reach jurong ard 5plus... then tz wan to go play basketball.. and wei hong too... so we head to 209 basketball.. yong they all have been playing for quite long le.. when we reach.. it started to rain Oh gosh.. and i told wei hong.. i dun wan play le.. he very bu shuang.. but no choice.. it is really raining ma.. so we when there for nth.. hahass.. wei hong and tze wei very pai seh leh waste the trip.^-^ So wei hong own friend play basketball and yong go home... me and tz went to IMM macdonld slack and using laptop until 9plus.. haha! thats my whole day... if i got 5 stars for happiness. i will give myself 2.5stars... that it gonna to slp.. still need to wake up early...buais!

how are you.. hais.. nvr hear from you again. jess=)

My few days..

2008-04-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

holiday still going on... tmr going to start our project... about polar ice cap melt... quite interesting topic... but still scare to present to whole class haha! ok watever.. today sports day again.. bowling and pool... erm.. Got 3 round... first round ben.. win.. and last 2 round i am the winner... haha! i am such a sports person... pool leh. erm.. not bad... yong most unhappy with me.. cus he cant win me.. hahas...better not let him saw that sentence.. or he going to kill me.. ok.. For relationship. did not really get or do anything... Cus she is too busy... but still i am still holding on..

i am in the crowd.. i wish i can outshine everyone..

and let you see who i really am. Jess =)

things going on...

2008-03-29T01:05:00.004+08:00

Today jus went sun tan... haha! now so hot liao... like fever! i guess i am super hot tmr... i mean another kinda of hot... hahas!.. i almost tan for like 2hrs... gosh.. is too long liao... i did not notice the timing.. so red now.. wonder will it be dark than red... after that when to play pool.. today play pool so smooth... have been wining.. haha! nth great about too... So this 5days have been like sports day... Not basketball it will be Pool.. althoughis bored, but is jus to have fun and occupy my time...
things jus not getting better with her.. jus chat with her.. even in msn she seems like busy too... but afterall she did reply.. so is not very bad afterall ... ytd sis ask me a qns... when will i like her until... i oso wonder! i can't get an ans too... but i am sure my feeling will still go on for months... Ok. stop it here.. tried liao... so hot.. like fever... get to bed now.. stay tune.. hahass!

i now only have a choice to wait.. cause i can't let go..Jess =)

happy anot?

2008-03-27T02:20:00.003+08:00

So what do you think.. mine new blogskin.. erm.. i am thinking about relationship more serious too much.. getting back to school.. at least make me stop thinking for that few hours.. jus somehow i jus think that something is missing in my life.. now worse.. holiday. quite bored.. did not get a chance to see her. is okay.. worse jus by msn or msg she oso bearing have time.. to jus give me an reply. is really different from the past i notice.. anw i have walk so many regretful steps.. now what i can do is just to take all the step that i needed too.. i just does not feel happy.. i know i am not happy at all.. even if i am happy.. maybe is just a few mins.. getting late.. i still waiting for sis.. haven come back! post tomorrow again.

what can i do.. to make you mine.. Jess =)

Many dayS

2008-03-25T21:06:00.003+08:00

2nd day of holiday le.. ytd jus watch a show step up 2.... The dance is really so cool.. how i wish i can too.. hahass.. today just play 4 hrs of pool.. nice nice... keep on Go out.. later going to be broke... hahass.. today got a call at home by a female... wonder who izzit? Somemore say is my friend.. who? nvm.. if the person wan to find me.. she will call me.. anw i think who ever wan find me should call my mobile.. many days nvr post.. miss my post ma.. haha! holiday.. what am i going to do.. Give Surprise give happiness! maybe!

how i feel!!

A smile from you.. is such a bless to me! Jess =)

early..but bored

2008-03-19T18:21:00.004+08:00

i was early today.. have my face test just now... lucky i know how to operate.. everthing.. but i when teacher asking me qns i am not very good... but afterall... i am quite happy.. for how i done.. haha!! Come back i was bored until i do lots of suvery... but there is only 3 i really interested on..

Your True Love Will Find You Eventually

You definitely put yourself out there a little - but you could be doing more.If you're truly looking for love, try doing more things and meeting more people.You don't have to actively look for love, you just need to stay active.Be out there a little more, and the right person will find you!

You Are the Ace of Hearts

Youthful and playful, you love life and the world.You have a kind spirit, and you bring happiness to everyone you know.Artistic and bold, you see the world in bright colors. And you certainly aren't afraid to express everything you see and feel.You are sentimental, and your emotions are very deep.You are easily swept away and easily hurt.A gamble you should take: BlackjackYour friends would describe you as: UniqueYour enemies would describe you as: WeepyIf you lived in Vegas, you would be: An up and coming chef or fashion designer

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.Sometimes this faith can lead to disappointment in the long run.No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

Is that really me.. hope so!

last day of school tmr... hope it can end prefectly alright!

i really wan to ask what you have been doing, i just scare that i will bother you somehow.. jess =)

My Survey!

2008-03-18T23:29:00.005+08:00

Jus reach home... jus when play pool with my buddy,tze wei... few days back.. i jus did 2 suvery at facebook... see it..

Your heart color is Purple

A person with a Purple Heart has a

multi - faceted personality.

Such people are usually full of desire and

normally indulge in controlled passion.

They make gentle drivers and

show concern for others over self.

RenJie, You are a born romantic.

Every date for you is an opportunity to look for love.

You are even open to adjustments to please
the "potential" love of your life.

You are flexible,

understanding and the type of person who makes ideal lovers.

You are great fun on dates, tothe point of pushing it.

Generally, you always get second calls.

Sound like i am a perfect person.. haha! hope so she will realise... haha!

i always pray for the best for us! Jess =)

feeling going crazy.

2008-03-17T22:33:00.004+08:00

oh gosh.. feeling going upside down.. so many need to be done in this week.. and no more time for thinking.. is really stressful.. luckly i got friends around me.. or i am dead.. why i have to choose.. although holiday is coming but i don't think is break for me at all..

No sound from her again.. vanish into thin air again.. i am still holding on. i oso dunno why i am so determine this time.. i guess my feeling is too deep.. i am going to be optimistic.. not going to anyhow think.. hope to hear her soon..

Thing is just getting hard if you don't let me know you more.. Jess =)

think over!

2008-03-16T17:09:00.007+08:00

i have think over many things.. i should be more understanding.. cannot over sensitive.. she nvr reply maybe is really she is too busy.. maybe lor.. and many other points.. about O level i really not sure i wan to go for it anot.. i really wonder should i... about working too.. 3th to 16th... not sure i wan to work anot.. hais.. i am a person really don't like to face the reality.. i don't really like to think.. i jus like to go according what god wan be to do.. i don't like to choose.. please give me a good advice.. think think think think think think.test tmr...
Muz get high high high marks!

Oh ya.. ytd.. almost get lost in the bus.. take bus lol.. then we take a long trip to factory lor.. so smelly.. gosh.. gosh.. nvr take 254 bus again.. NVR!

Is been 9158400 Sec nvr see you.. hais. Jess =)

Another friday.

2008-03-14T11:34:00.000+08:00

Going for O level's lesson.. maybe nite going see movie again... ytd jus see 10,000 BC... the lead actor is really cool and macho lor.. the actress oso very pretty with blue eye.. the show so-so la... going to bathe liao.. okay. byebye!

i tried to make you happy.. i did all that i could.. but you jus dont bother me.. Jess =)

today and yesterday..

2008-03-11T20:33:00.002+08:00

today jus found out that i am going to have lots of exam coming... this thur next wed and thur... wa piang... but this thur is about safety.. somemore is MCQ... now i am counting down in 10more days i going to holiday.. haha!!! going to have siao fun liao... haha!! erm yesterday.. i was quite surprise by myself.. i was like under my blk le... suddenly got a call.. and my father tell me to buy scotch tape at popular... when i was jus there only.. i jus say okay lor... haha.. am i a very good person.. haha! hope you agree.. so kind of me.. the worse is like raining non-stop.. i walk through the rain 2time.. that its... of what i done.. sec student are so lucky. holiday le.. kinda miss Sec school life!

izzit possible to be together, i really wan to know.. Jess =)

what i done!

2008-03-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today i only done of the best thing is doing my LLA.. writting as like i am apply a job letter... this muz be pass up tmr... is very important.. or i have to repeat the whole term.. 2nd biggest thing i do is playing PSP game.. gosh.. what a waste of time... 3rd i watch the yuan lai wo bu shuai... the show is jus like... really not shuai.. i was jam in esp8... i wanna to watch esp9 on youtube... but is not upload yet.. sob sob.. watching the show is sweet and funny.. this person that him and she like other guy... is like many triangle love lor... nicky super funny... jj is cute lor.. that girl is so pretty.. gosh.. if i am jj i will be so shy.. no matter when i see her lor..

about me talking to her leh.. still the same.. holiday is seems like still schooling.. nvm.. i will believe.. even i don believe what i can do.. nth.. jus quiet ba...

will i stand a chance? or you have already found your own? Jess =)

2day!

2008-03-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

Gone back JVS to take N lvl cert... Saw Mr See.. Last year form teacher.. then we went to eat at canteen.. erm.. Sec life flash back to mine mind... esp Sec 4... erm.. really jus hope to see her for once.. but nvr... maybe is fate lor... After that we head to IT fair... erm... alot alot ppl... i alot of girl wearing so less lor... they muz be so cold cold... pity them... after everything.. i was so tried le... then tz wanna to buy present for a gal... so we went shop to shop and see... he brought a necklane.. got mickey same.. quite nice... end it here... slp liao.. nite.. GOSH 2am liao...

Maybe i pushing you to hard... maybe you need sometime time.. Jess =)

YEa!

2008-03-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

Not going school tmr.. not even the O lvl lesson.. haha!! tmr got pracitcal science experiment.. need to calulate what is the Dissovle oxygen inside the water... face test 19mar. So fast.. and i have to remb every step.. gosh.. 17mar i have to operate the pump and line up... gosh.. and test for theory is coming.. So fast.. holiday oso coming.. 22mar.. ok. tmr going back JVS and going IT show! i will talk about more tmr..

She is the only girl who make me mesmerised to her! Jess =)

Going on...

2008-03-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

today the same lor... nothing leh... so bored.. how i wish i can make things special leh... friday going back to JVS.. ex-school.. Want to just have a hrs of lunch with her.. her time seems like i nvr able to get it.. enter to her life seems like so hard.. but wateva.. i going to rush in.. ok. haha.. abit crazy but serious.. she is the first person i really dare to give her things without reason..

She just got what i like.. Jess =)

Just awhile !

2008-03-04T00:14:00.003+08:00

haa.. come in post awhile.. what a tried day i have... in school life getting more smooth.. but relationship with ppl still not quite good.. tmr got badminton sure more tried...now time is getting late.. got to sleep.. nite!

i need to find a way to you.. to let you see what i have got.. Jess =)

3month!

2008-03-02T16:36:00.003+08:00

yesterday is the 3month nvr able to see her... she have been really busy.. but i donno what make her so busy.. i guess is the home work and the O lvl's.. really feel quite sad..sob.sob.

yesterday when pulau ubin cycle... first time take the ferry.. is like kampong life.. only cause 2dollars to go pulau ubin.. so cheap lor.. and we rent bicycle.. the owner there dont really can speak good chinese.. the chinese abit strange.. but we try to understand it lor.. it cause 8dollars.. around the same as singapore.. At first we should go with the guide but my friend go your own.. then we went cycle our own...we went cycle around.. when we reach a place where is up the hill.. the wind is so windy.. the sky turn black.. and it started raining so heavily... totaly wet. we cycle to toliet where there is shelter.. standing there for 45mins.. playing PSP.. haha! then we cycle again.. we went back 1pm plus... then ben and tz come my hse put PSP game liao.. then we went out play pool.. haa.. so tried le lor.. That how i spend my sat!! haha!

where you are. i will be! Jess =)

hardest week in ite

2008-02-29T21:26:00.003+08:00

My hardest week in ite.. is over haha... so envious when i present my presentation.. hais no confident .. muz build up alot alot confident.. tomorrow going to have fun at pulah ubin le... cycle at there... sure alot adventure 1... tmr. i sure blog more..

i am willing to prove my love to you..but i need you to see.. Jess =)

today!

2008-02-27T22:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday nth much really happen.. today still continue to study.. and learn how to operate the system... is quite fun.. tmr there are things to spice me up.. having PRESENTATION tmr.. going speak to the whole class.. haha.. gosh cant believe lor.. renjie.. good luck.. relax.. you will be fine.. okay.. they cant eat you up ma... JIAYOU..KAMBATEH!

i want a perfect day for us.. but i guess i need to wait for a period of time!jess =)

what is pain..

2008-02-25T20:13:00.008+08:00

ytd tears fall.. what msg i got from her.. the worse pain is heart pain... Who hurt me or what.. is not pain at all.. but the girl you like say you... is what a pain.. maybe she change le... the word she use totally change le... not like the past liao... i will make it change back.. where it all started..

This is the shape of my heart now..

You say we never be long..

human oso know they will die but they still continue to live on..

why? you understand?

ending is not important.. is the process.. but you even want to start.. jess =)

what a fun day!

2008-02-24T11:35:00.002+08:00

yesterday went kbox with ben, yong, tze wei.. is so fun.. sing in the room for hours.. i and tze wei sing the most.. we went orchard and sing... after that we went to play pool.. at lucky plaza... i really have improve alot.. my aiming become better now.. keep on win.. haha.. So i really wonder should i go to pool as my cca.. but nvm.. My feeling down very uneasy lor.. is like sometime my heart pump so fast and sometime it go slow..gosh.. tmr got exam le... and 4 more days is presentation.. there is like no one care for me.. but nvm.. All the best ren jie!!

Is going to become 3 months nvr able to see you... Jess =)

i may look fine.but i am not.

2008-02-22T09:30:00.006+08:00

ytd mind going crazy.. things is coming more and more fast.. can feel stress le.. next week test and going to represent project is coming... today going to study for o lvl.. i really not sure can i do it.. cus is not simple to pass.. i dunno really i wan to continue anot.. hais.. but i today i am still going.. My wishes never stop.. how i wish i can get back to secondary life.. but i know this will never happen.. Life there is so good.. there is a sense of belonging.. School now is like start early and end late.. because the break and lesson is so long... hope i can feel better..

No matter how busy i am. i will still care for you! jess =)

Jurong island erm..

2008-02-20T23:23:00.005+08:00

when to jurong island today... hear from a auntie,who work there for years already.. she say they are going to make up to 5000 football field.. that huge.. 95 over company over there.. wa.. that was crazy.. going there i guess is just to see the surrounding only.. The plant is huge.. (erm for people who dunno.. plant is not that kind of plant outside where you see everyday.. The plant is where pipe over everywhere tanks and many things... it end quite fast.. 1hr plus we went back to school.. and 1.30 is lesson again... end class 4.30.. so me and yong went back to jurong east and eat our dinner... on the way we saw wei hong and 1 gal call mishell.. haha don bother i know i spell wrongly.. but she not going to see it anyway... shh..shh.. if you know her...shh.. wei hong ask us to play basketball.. then we go play le.. at first we are going to play under my blk.. but my basketball lost... so we call lin han ask weather they wan to play anot.. they say ok.. so we head there lor.. play for a few hrs.. then really wan to go home.. but wei hong wan us to pei him.. so we sit down and rest.. the funny part that come.. wei hong call jamica, who lim yong really like.. and we laugh and laugh.. saying things 4 of us knows only.. don bother to write it now here.. cus is too long to type it... ok. tmr 8am lesson muz sleep already.. nite nite. Hope your test have done well.jess♂

i promise i will not change anymore.. esp towards you..jess=)

She is getting busy again..

2008-02-19T22:32:00.002+08:00

Erm.. days have been the same... slp,study,online.... wat i have done... oh gosh.. so bored.. today just let someone angry... wish to say it here... Sorry! tomorrow going to jurong island.. i guess tomorrow i got more to say here.. will post again..

Now you are in one end and i am in another end..

i am moving towards you..

but i need you to move too..

jess =)

My life

2008-02-17T14:09:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went out to see movie with tze wei and yong.. my old good friends.. we watch Ah long pte ltd and jumper.. compare this too show.. ah long is funny but storyline is not very good, the ending is lousy.. jumper is like so cool.. the power they have i wish i have too.. when they were young the like each other...they were separate for 8 years.. but they still love each other..that was touching...

erm.. after 72hrs she reply me.. i can see she is really busy.. she told me don't worry.. oh gosh.. how can i don't worry.. but nvm.. she is okay now....

Today quite bored.. really don't feel like go out.. but home there is nothing i can do.. maybe going read some of my notes later.. better keep going.. wait wait.. if you are looking for song. hear simple plan the new album.. quite not bad.. esp time to say goodbye, save you, i can wait forever.. my top 3 songs.. hear it..

it seems like no matter what i do ... you does'nt really seem to care.. jess =)

Don't Feel Good

2008-02-15T22:17:00.003+08:00

today No lesson hurray! but i have to crack my head... this morning have been thinking that which 1 i should you.. O lvl or cca... this two thing is important.. and they crash in the same time... in the end i choose to study O lvl.... but i msg my badminton friend nizam.. he told me that it start at 12pm to 2pm.. and it did not crash.. cus O lvl start at 2pm.. i am so glad.. i got this 2.. so next week i am going to badminton! My top Sport! haha! today i think and i want to write it down..

It hab been 3 days you never reply me.
i am kind of worry.
even if you message me without any letter
that will do, at least i know that you are alright

but now i cant trace you down..
i dont even know what are you doing.
i dont even know are you avoiding me.
i dont even know how are you doing.
is okay that not important,
after all i just wish that you are okay.

that it..
not very good in using words but is what i feel!
Hope to see you soon and reply!

Are you okay! Are you having problem or problem is me? jess =)

Valentine is over

2008-02-15T00:39:00.003+08:00

This morning really donno wat to do after school.. ytd i msg her she did not reply.. today too.. i really wan to msg her alot alot 1.. but i really scare it will be very irritating.. i have prepare for the worse... maybe she already have a guy.. but i really hope is not... today all the places is just about couple and couple.. even the air smell better.. haha! i am exaggerating! Don really have things to write for today.. after all... Giving all my blessing to whose who are in love out there... and for the single like me.. can have your own love partner! =)

Am i making you irritated.. are you avoiding me.. if really tell me.. i will stop..

if not please don't be cold to me.. jess =)

What i felt today!

2008-02-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is valentine.. not going to spend with her... today at the street is all about gifts to someone who is special to you! i guess today i am going so be the super sian.. esp tomorrow.. cus tomorrow should be special.. but too bad.. she is busy!! busy!! busy!! just flash through mine mind of lyrics... read it if you wan..

after 3months
Taking out the picture
there is you and me
i just think back
when i look at you
i just know that there is something between us!

valentine
i have been waiting for
but you just shut me down
but is okay
i can make anyday become our valentine if you willing.

jessica. just for you. no matter you read anot. i will remember today. the lyrics i wrote.. =)

i just need you.no matter how busy you are.i just need to see you and i will be happy enough..jess=)

fail again

2008-02-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

today almost late to school... but i am lucky haha.. i start lesson at 10am and i leave hse 9am... i reach class around 10.09am... jus nice to mark attendance... erm learn again.. after my long 4days break.. 1.58pm i msg her.. fail to meet her up again! she say she is busy.. is she really so busy or just wan to avoid me. i really hope its not... so shi bai of me... but nvm.. i am sure there is day she will not be busy at all... but mood still get distracted lor... after school i went to jurong entertianment and find jonathan who is working at zingdo... went there to eat.. my dinner is nice.. haha dunno wat noodle is that.. but is nice.. jonathan can cook.... hope he can have bright future ahead..

what is left with me... is just your smile and our only photo. jess =)

Back to school again!

2008-02-12T01:13:00.000+08:00

today back to school so sian.. hais.. but no choice, this is life what! this is singapore... today study and study lor.. let talk about ytd... i went to my aunt hse again... and we eat.. my grandma is a good cook too.. her curry chicken is super nice.. even just eating bee boon is so nice le... my grandma and my mum can really open a shop to sell food... the sale sure good 1... the best thing is we gamble.. and surprisingly i win over 10 dollars... oh gosh.. can believe my luck is with me... (hope that is always with me)... ok. now is pretty late.. valentine is reaching.... WHAT SHOULD I DO! ARGH!

In the past i just think about tomorrow.. but now i think about our future!

ƻᾕḎ ḌẵῨ ổḟ ἤềѾ ӳἔἆŘ

2008-02-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

ytd was too tired... went to yi po hse and grandma hse... then we have to rush back.. cus some relative is coming.. About today is so much better.. i no need to visit.. ppl coming to mine hse.. haha.. but worse thing is i got flu... always the 2 day of new year i got flu 1.. hais.. afternoon is my father side.. sister is coming.. means my aunt and uncle... the best of today is every year 2nd day of new year mine mum will cook for everyone... is so nice lor.. today shark fin soup is the best of the best this year... follow by abalone with veg lor.. My mum is really a good cook.. she can open a restaurant.. haha.. serious.. got bad thing to say.. i gamble take some coin from my father and gamble.. i lost all lor.. about 7 to 6dollars.. sob sob.. they left around 4plus... then i went to bathe and sleep for awhile.. erm i guess around 6.30pm my Mum side.. sister come.. again the food is VERY GOOD! We gamble again.. i got 15dollars of mine own.. You know wat i left? i left 3dollars... OH gosh.. i lost 12dollars.. hais.. but nvm once a year only.. afterall i still like new year.. cus is really give me the family untie and warmth.. but my heart still left someone who is really important. i am waiting..

please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds... jess =)

Happy New year!

2008-02-07T01:51:00.000+08:00

Today i should not go to school... taking a trip to simei and end go there for PE lesson only.. 1hr 30min! wat a waste of mine time... i reach home about 1pm.. then you guess wat i have done this afternoon? i SLEEP! from 1pm plus to 6.30pm... about 5hrs of sleep.. haha.. i am not tired at all now... after waking up i use comp for awhile and we start our steamboat... the soup base is so so nice heavenly sweet!.. my mum really is a good cook! haha! So full today! then we put some decoration at our house and the plant outside our house.. pretty nice.. you can drop by my house and see. haha! then watch tv program lor... the happy moment is 12am which is HONG BAO time.. haha! first hong bao from parents.. and really hope there are more to come.. this few days maybe quite busy.. going to hear some song and sleep le.. Nite Nite! ћāρÞУ ŋέώ ỳεąѓ!

New year means is a new start.. i just hope things will work out for us! jess =)

schooling!

2008-02-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

today is still tired.. but not so! erm. today lesson pretty good.. got learn quite alot few things... food leh... don have any great discover. haha! after school went out again... i went to have my hair cut.. my hair stylish went back to malaysia.. i guess so.. but my hair is so messy.. i have to cut.. so no choice i have to cut... then end up i got a lady cut for me... she cut not bad la.. but i still like my hair stylish lor... yong got so angry Cus the ppl working there did not invite him to seat now.. end up he did not cut... then yong have to go first.. i meet tze wei cus he wan to buy shoe.. so we went to queensway shopping centre.. he brought a 101dollars shoe and a pants which is same as mine... next time we can wear the same haha! then we when back to jurong eat our dinner.. and is already 9plus.. i eat hor fan and he eat fan fan... haha! you mus be clueless that wat is fan fan rite.. let me explain... hor fan means noodle and some other food... fan fan means rice with some other food lor... haha.. still clueless rite... i am lousy to describe things... Sorry. haha! then we went IMM cus he wan to go bossini.. then he brought 2top.. and we went home le...

let me talk sense to you, i need you to hear! jess =)

=) Day

2008-02-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

today so lazy to wake up... cus yesterday 1plus then sleep... So so slpy.. but i did not slp at class.. cus the chair is making my butt pain lor.. so hard! i started very sleepy when lifeskill lesson... is so cooling and chair is just nice! So i slp for few mins when teacher is playing some video about self esteem! haha.. maybe i have a bit of poor self esteem lor.. so scare.. cus i got quite many symptoms... but i guess not really la. haha! end school about 4.50plus... then me and yong meet tze wei.. we when fareast AGAIN! i guess this week we when 3 times le.. ok.. then really nth much.. then we when to vivo AGAIN and the same shop... freshbox, IP zone.. leg tired again.. now i will be going to sleep le.. mus later i got panda eye during New year is not good!

i don't want you ONLY to be my friend..understand? jess =)

Busy daysS...

2008-02-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

last 2 days. no time to blog.. too tried.. always come home so late... have been seeing clothes.. erm.. pretty not bad.. my fashion is too bad.. haha! today morning shop again... and i meet tze wei.. today oh gosh.. rain and rain.. so heavy lor.. tze wei say he at taka.. so we when there.. and there he is working.. i really donno is he working as part-timer anot.. but i just really hope he get back to study.. cus we are still young.. then hab lunch with yong, me, tz lor... then 5pm plus we when to fareast see yong pants lor.. then we went to bugis freshbox i brought a shirt.. that is very very nice haha.. then i saw wen xing.. wow he is still working at there.. hear from him he don't wan to study.. Sob.. we are young, why don't study as much as we can.. donno? maybe everyone road is different.. then i was almost late for dinner with my grandma.. but not cus 2nd sis did not come yet... after we open the luck pot.. is something lots of expensive stuff in it.. it cost 150plus... and is just a pot of food.. is not much and is not very nice.. So i think is really not worth at all... so abt 9.30 we head home le... now is super late le.. got to sleep.. niteZ.!

i keep on see you at the street! why! jess=)

Łεģ φĄįη

2008-01-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Muscle is so tense up lor.. after the idiot 2.4 running.. i cant walk properly.. today i am sleepy very sleepy.. hais.. but i still manage to learn watever i need too... about food today.. nth leh. still the same.. the most happy part is i when to bishan to see cathy.. abt 1 month nvr see her le.. she is much more elder then me but we can click well.. dunno why.. she is like my another sis.. i talk to her alot.. abt my life.. abt my school and lots... really happy to see her. somemore today is her last day working at nike addias puma... abt 8pm we when off le.. then we head to Vivo AGAIN!! to see some earpiece.. walk and walk my leg now is like gold cant move.. then abt 9.40 plus we head more le.. i really hope i can meet cathy soon again.. she is my bossom friend!!

i just hope i can be right at your side! =)

NAFA test and My adventure

2008-01-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

about learning today.. not much! The most energy i spent is NAFA test. gosh.. quite lousy lor... but can pass all.. haha! mus train le.. i am quite weak lor.. So end around.. 4pm then yong say he wan to go VIVo see clothes.. we are so funny.. at first we are waiting for 31 at the bus stop.. but went it arrive so many crowded at the door le.. we cant enter le.. sob.. so i say why don we walk to expo MRT.. we walk to there lor... wa we walk and walk lor.. still haven reach at all lor.. i think we from 5th hall to 1st hall.. so far away lor... we reach then we saw like why no 1 ard.... i tot is close . haha.. but nvr we saw ppl ard there.. so we take all way to vivo.. we walk IP zone, spade, freshbox, and many shop lor.. i brought short pant at freshbox.. it catch my eye.. haha.. yong T-shirt there too.. quite red but is quite cool la.. the design is with gutiar and a headphone and is like connect to ur body 1... not bad.. then we eat our dinner and we head home.. EnD!

My heart cant change!